A journey of dreams and depressions

This again is an effort to keep writing.The target audience for this blog is being narrowed down by me and hence giving me freedom to be open to myself.I have just got the autobiography of the Steve jobs and raring to open it. Right now I am busy with the book "think and grow rich" by napoleon hill. He talks about the power of desire and subconscious mind and tuning some thing to that subconscious mind. You need to think or auto feed your mind your target in order to achieve that..well...whether that works or not is something need to be seen. But one thing is clear in order to achieve something you need to plant it strongly in your head and start dreaming about it. Dreams with open eyes are wonderful companions to have. Success is happiness and dream is aspiration for that success. I used to dream a lot during childhood and teenage and the scope being unlimited. One dream...rather a fantasy was to open the batting sachin tendulkar....though girls and life with them occupied the majority of my dreams good family with a great home was there as a bigger picture. Then I loved this girl(now my wife)and I was under the pressure to convert this dream into reality...and this was not a smooth ride. In pursuit of my dream I had to face unknown and uncommon obstacles. Some were expected and and some were really unexpected. They were so serious that they could easily distract me from my pursuit. Suddenly I became unaware of my purpose of life because the obstacles were so big that they made rethink to quit. Then the question arose "quit from what?". Quit from the basic purpose that drives me to living. Quitting was equivalent to being dead as you don't have a purpose in life. Then it seemed obvious to me that quitting is impossible and so analysing the obstacles is the only way out. One thing became clearer to me that those obstacles were not external but internal. Thanks to all those psychiatrists, books, friends and dear Ones who stood with me to realise this fact. I started to dream again and this time with clarity. I broke those dreams into smaller targets and enjoyed them(and still doing the same). Learning from the knowledge available and seeking the happiness available were two things that were and that are driving me towards my pursuit. The purpose of writing this is to enjoy the process of being in pursuit irrespective of the result. Hence this is the journey towards dreams through fighting depressions. Pursuit....obviously is happiness.