A journey of dreams and depressions

This again is an effort to keep writing.The target audience for this blog is being narrowed down by me and hence giving me freedom to be open to myself.I have just got the autobiography of the Steve jobs and raring to open it. Right now I am busy with the book "think and grow rich" by napoleon hill. He talks about the power of desire and subconscious mind and tuning some thing to that subconscious mind. You need to think or auto feed your mind your target in order to achieve that..well...whether that works or not is something need to be seen. But one thing is clear in order to achieve something you need to plant it strongly in your head and start dreaming about it. Dreams with open eyes are wonderful companions to have. Success is happiness and dream is aspiration for that success. I used to dream a lot during childhood and teenage and the scope being unlimited. One dream...rather a fantasy was to open the batting sachin tendulkar....though girls and life with them occupied the majority of my dreams good family with a great home was there as a bigger picture. Then I loved this girl(now my wife)and I was under the pressure to convert this dream into reality...and this was not a smooth ride. In pursuit of my dream I had to face unknown and uncommon obstacles. Some were expected and and some were really unexpected. They were so serious that they could easily distract me from my pursuit. Suddenly I became unaware of my purpose of life because the obstacles were so big that they made rethink to quit. Then the question arose "quit from what?". Quit from the basic purpose that drives me to living. Quitting was equivalent to being dead as you don't have a purpose in life. Then it seemed obvious to me that quitting is impossible and so analysing the obstacles is the only way out. One thing became clearer to me that those obstacles were not external but internal. Thanks to all those psychiatrists, books, friends and dear Ones who stood with me to realise this fact. I started to dream again and this time with clarity. I broke those dreams into smaller targets and enjoyed them(and still doing the same). Learning from the knowledge available and seeking the happiness available were two things that were and that are driving me towards my pursuit. The purpose of writing this is to enjoy the process of being in pursuit irrespective of the result. Hence this is the journey towards dreams through fighting depressions. Pursuit....obviously is happiness.

What and where is our culture heading......

Right now we in India are struck....struck terribly between modern (read western)and traditional mindsets...even the generation next is unable to understand where they stand....everybody wants a modern girlfriend and the same material is unfit as a wife....moral dilemmas are as common as anything else....this is a disturbing trend as the person you are cheating is none other than you...convience is the new concept these days...for example if u have time you plan to execute each and every traditional ceremony and if u r busy...oh why to follow those in these days....basic flaw lies in lack of reasoning at individual and cultural level....why do you pray...coz you are told to so by those who are told to do so by others and this mass misunderstanding continues....horoscope is the basic essential thing rather love in case of marriages(arranged) how the hell do they forecast your well being..? some unknown science....boy friend has to be tough ,party animal and somebody who gives all his time to her....but husband....caring individual who is responsible,earns a lot and has a greater social status(has to be from the caste yaar...)...where dose this duality arrive from? and whom are you cheating?I wish this to be a temporary phase through which the culture is transforming and i personally think for the current period the shift towards the western culture is for the good of upcoming generations....

Miss you Steve

it has been a really long time since I wrote a blog.I would not have written this too if I didnt have this new iPad in my hand.But this has made me to scribble again and ...yep back again...as always I promise myself to write regularly.The problem with under achievers(ppl like me)is indiscipline.we take hell lot of resolutions and when it comes to delivery we miss the bus.probably that's the major difference between "average " and above average.using this iPad,iPhone and iPod and king of apple products iMac has made me huge fan of Steve jobs (probably the other way round).Still....he is a dream come true and life in a fantasy..but death the ultimate destination Steve talked about has come to him RIP....the world will his magic...and his on stage presence...his lovely Stanford speech is as good as his successful products(great thing is that it's available for free online)....such are the ppl who make their creators proud...hmm it's really nice to write a blog with iPad...feels gud and makes you Proud may be this is the feeling that fairer sex get when they flaunt those expensive jewellery.To me apple and stevejobs in particular seems to be a rare mix of art and technology and that's why ppl love him. He made his profits but the users of the products know it's worth....miss him a lot...now it's real test watching the apple without steve at the helm.Great ppl make great organisations and apple has proved it again....

Why should I be proud to be an indian

We have a great culture they say....but ppl are such a hypocrites....we are one family they say....ppl fight with each other....Mumbai has a great spirit they say...ppl dont know whether they return home or not when the leave in the morning and thy know tht its not the spirit but its the  helplessness....we are a developing nation and our economy is growing they say...farmers commit suicide.....women are worshiped here they say....girls are raped brutally in every corner of the country....satyameva jayete they say....but truth is the last thing we discuss in meetings and forums.....sacrifices are made by the great leaders who gave their lives to the country they say...but i dont understand that their sons and daughters are billionares and  rest lay naked in the streets....

I used to take pride in being an indian as a child. Every August 15 was real festival and republic parade was a dream happening. "I am proud of my country"---This is wht i used to think. Ppl leaving this country are so selfish...Asutosh gowathrikar made the Swades movie using this concept. It is really wonderful to live in a world of pseudo patriotism which is encouraged by every teacher to his student. But every great brain has left this country.....I used to think it as betrayal.....we are taught to ask what did u do for the country rather than what the country did for you...put your duties before your responsibilities....is it wrong to question "what this country has done for her honest citizen"... one question kept on bothering me is why are ideals so wrong....why ????

Well it took some years to find a rational answer.....without a bias tht i love my country however dirtyy and filthy is its state....slowly i realized ppl lied about this massive patriotism....every being is free to choose its life in a better way....."selfishness" ...is condemned here but every god dam patriot here is selfish and thats the right way to be....but only thing that hurts is this "brotherhood"....if there is true brotherhood why do we fight every other day...it is this "hypocrisy " that is the route cause of all evils....
The hypocrisy is very dangerous this which i observed in every other person i see around....This is the danger....you are supposed to worship elders how ever rubbish they preach you.....either you act or you cheat yourself....right from morning to night this hypocrisy is evil that is biting this country and god knows whether they recognize this.....

My one question is ..."Do you love India?"----Answer this in your hearts...one thing i request is be true to yourself......

My dream team of one day cricket

Siva Spurthy Dream Team-Oneday

Openers:
1. Striker: Adam Gilcrist(WC)-Disastrous batsmen and willy keeper
2. Non-Striker: Sachin Tendulkar-Maestro

Middle order:
3. One Down and my captain: Ricy Ponting-An example of "lead by example"
4. Second Down: Aravinda Diselva-Every captian's dream middle order batsmen
5. Third Down: Michel Bevan-Such an honor to see him bat according to situation

All rounder:
6. Andrew Flintoff-Dangerous with both ball and bat

Bowlers:
7. Glen Mcgrath-Consistent good length bowler and the more u try to score with him the more is the chance of him getting ur wicket
8. Bret Lee-Pace
9. Wasim Akram-King of swing
10.Shane Warne-Legspinner(magic fingers)
11.Muralidharan-Offspinner-Killer Bowler